"Already Home"

by Karyn Ellis

Glimmering sail on the horizon.
Frail light, but I can see the new day.
Little dot brightening, dawn is on its way.

It’s been a cold and bitter winter
My cheeks raw with wind.
Nascent light, soon it will be spring.

Time left me standing at the bus stop
Stamping my feet to keep my toes from freezing.
When I landed at your doorstep
I had no key, I couldn’t get in.
There was nobody home.

I thought that we would be together
'Til earth kissed its longest day.
But the heat must have melted you away.

And it’s been a cold and bitter exit
My heart still raw with love.
Absent nights, yes this would be enough.

Time left me stranded in your shadow
Building up hope, looking on the bright side.
You left me shivering under scaffold
The weather got in, though the walls were sure there.
It was no home.

Time left me stranded at your doorstep
Stomping my feet, keeping with the season.
And when I finally saw you in the window
I didn’t knock. I didn’t go in.
I was already home.

I thought that we would be together
'Til earth kissed its longest day.
But the heat melted you away.

It’s been a cold and bitter winter
My cheeks still raw with wind.
Nascent light, soon it will be spring.


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Above the song lyrics is a picture of the first farmer's market bouquet we've had all summer. I've always loved flowers; they brighten the home and add a softness to daily things. Blossoms for smiles, bright rainbow colors... who could be sad? Maybe it was a frivolous purchase, but I feel better for having brought them home and placed them on our table. It was also wonderful to help support local growers and the amazing work that they do. There is something about a beloved task, a toil accepted without remorse. I feel a kindredship with these people who kneel on the ground most days under a merciless sun, who plow their fingers into the earth and coax green things. How beautiful.

 - Jacinta, for the Meyers family

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